it's suck!

yeah. i mean it. live in others expectation? what u say? what u feel? i keep avoiding people. but it seems like they just don't understand.

me, sitting here like an bisu-idiot person in this worlwide. i try to laugh. try to make ppl laugh. try to smile as sweet as i can. but deep inside. i noe it's fake. fake smile that just splattered across my face.

here i am. not blaming ppl around me. i noe they just want the best for me. i admit. sometimes i expect more from myself. sometimes it just beyond my limit. but it just get into me. just can't avoid it. totally wanna fuck myself.

i'm really disappointed with myself.

what can i do now is just sit. pray. hoping for brighter days. redha.

disappoinment is a part of life (:

kejam tak ??

Rasa geram, rasa nk marah, rasa nk luku kepala lutut dye, rasa nk sekeh2 dye, rasa nk.. rasa nk.. hee! Mcm-mcm yg aku rase nie.. HAH!! thu dah ape yg aku nk sbenarnye!! Nk ajak 'makhluk tuhan yg tk bape nk seksi' tu bukak stage wrestling!

Haila.., betul!sumpah!se-ri-yes! Aku nk ajak kaq aku wrestling! Geram sgt dgn dye smlm.. Ada ke patut dye lock bedroom dr dlm! Aku baru sedar yg dye lock pintu around 2.15 a.m pg tadi. Ngek!Mcm mne nk tido??????? huu.. Mlm tue aku on ym,fb.. sambil tue aku mem-be-log.. Ntah nape, after kekek ngan tasha aku terase nk msk room kejap. Sekali.. Hah! Amek ko! Pintu lockl!! Mcm2 care aku guna nk kejot kaq ngan adk aku. Ketuk pintu nye lain, call phone nye lain, haish! Pendek kate mcm2 yg aku buwat..

Okay. i try to relaks.. Call tasha, dye gelak2 dlue then bru tunjuk kesian kat aku.. Cit! Keji betol! Waktu2 cm tue mmg rase sejuk smcm.. Msk room lagik satu nk amek sweater. Bukak pintu almari baju. Selak-selak bju yg ber-hangger. Tkda. Selak lagik. Tkda. Percubaan terakhir. Selak lagik. Sah. Confirm. Cop kat dahi. Mmg tkda. Dduk blk kat kusi. Fikir.. Fikir.. Cling! Ingat suda~ Mama dah fold sweater aku msk dlm room laen. Alahh.. Sejuk nie.. )):

Duduk diam-diam. Amek mp4. On mp4. Switch frm lgu hindustan to Hitzfm. Suddenly.. Yahoooo! Jumpa cardigan! Atas kusi. The cardigan looks tk senonoh ats kusi tue. Sgh ia tidak berlipat. Sape la last person yg pkai ekh pastue main campak jek kt kusi?? Hee~ Tk senonoh betol.. Aku amek and put it on me.

Duduk diam-diam agy. Masa tue tgh lagu 'Papparazi'. Tak thu nk buwat ape.. Last2 aku pergi la membaca.. Sahut seruan kerajaan kot aku pg tue (Konon nye laa..)

Kimia spm ada. Akhlak & Tasawuf drajah khas pn ad! Hahaha.

Khamis mlm Jumaat. Hah! Tue yg mama ckp mlmnye. Ok. Relaks. Breathe in. Breathe out. Pandang kiri. Pandang kanan. (Gaya da mcm nk lintas road jek) Pandang depan. Pandang belakang. Clear. Tkda pape. Relaks. Truskan baca buku. Ok. Rasa cuak tetibe. Letak pen. Bangun. Berdiri. Kuatkan volume mp4 smpai max. Kuarkn kaki kanan. Diikuti kaki kiri. Walkathon!!

Kedegang door blk mama ngan papa mcm nk pecah. Mama,mama,mama.. Sore time tue mcm nk tknk jek kua.. Huu.. Dang!Dang!Dang! Ma bukak pintu. Buwat sinopsis. Bitau mama. Lastly tido st room ngn parents! (:

*Rase cuak semcm mlm tue psl these few weeks i keep watching horror movies! (Padan muka!)

*Smpat buwat mind mapping akhlak. Bab : 8,9,10 and a half.. He.. Bole bagik iya..

*Baru terigt! Aku-lah last person yg pkai cardigan tue! Ngek!Ngek!Ngek!

*Tgh hari td buwat serangan mulut kat kakak aku! 'Dye kata sori, tk sengaka,tk perasan'.. (Nk caya ke tk??)

*Aku angkat tilam yg ma bru beli siang tue bawak msk room. Buwat tido. (Tilam tue tk la seringan mane..) )):

Haaaa..

Enough for now..

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Nov, 11th

Nope! Jgn slh sangka. Jgn slh anggap. Maaf. Bukan nak berbual pasal the loveable actor yang diminati ramai. None other than Loenardo Dicaprio.. Aku tahu that he was born on 11th of Nov.. Tapi dye tak ckp berjaya tarik minat, hati dan perasaan aku utk aku mem-be-log pasal dye.. Hah! Tk penting pn!

Well 11th of Nov - every year, is a one of the BIG day for my family. Birthday papa..

Tahun nie, birthday papa jatuh ari rabu. Hee! Sma dgn aku! Tak pegi mane pun.. Just hanging around dkat shopping mall..

Was taken while waiting for the loving couple to arrive.. Budak kecik tu lapar. Along tamau g orderkan. Sebaik bwk papa-roti. Hehehe

Sama jugak. Tunggu papa & mama dtg. Masa itu emas. Jgn bazirkan masa. Lebih afdhal kalo bergambar drpd termenung =p

Here they are! Food dah order. Mulut papa FULL! Hahaha. Cian papa tgh makan aku soh pndg camera.



Everybody! Dig in! Muka masing2 sgt excited mkn KFC. They are only 5/6 in pictoraz. One is missing. Yang hilang itu sibuk tangkap gmbr. Sebab itu in the middle of two beautiful ladies tue bolong. =p


Plan nak order kat secret. Tapi tk smpt. Jln2 kt mall tue jmpa season. Time nie org tua kami tk tiba lagi. Tinggalkan iya ngan hakim kt KFC. Kt season sempat 'gaduh-gaduh manja' dgn along. Tak tawu nk pilih cake mane. Fikir pny fikir smpai iya call bilang papa&mama da sampai. Last kiteorg pilih cake tue..


Plan nk potong cake kat KFC. Tp terbantut. So, celebrate secara rasmi dkat uma.

Happy Birthday Papa! Ngee~ Hakim ckp birthday dye pn on Nov. Layan. Maka cake dipotong secara berjemaah. Hahaha

' A MAN IS NOT OLD AS LONG AS HE IS SEEKING SOMETHING '

Papa , Happy Birthday! =]]

Enough for now...

(@_@)

tiada tajuk untuk yang satu ini

Tiada tajuk. Ye. Tak ada tajuk.
Tak tahu nak tulis ape.
Hanya tahu nak meng-upload gambar yang baru aku edit..
I am the budak baru belajar meng-edit gambar..

My first experiment. Ahahaha. A girl at kfc with sampan berkeliaran at the bottom part of the pictoraz

=]]

The second : Two adik-beradik dan seseorang yang 'upside down'. hahaha. So gi-lak yellow!

The last pictoraz : Picture of me. This pic was captured before going to kenduri kahwin.

Nak ketawe ke?..

Tak kelakar. Tak, tak kelakar.(faham?..) Bile bace betol2 bole jugak buwat org ge-lak. Kalo tak bace leklok , msti rase " ntah pape jek "

A story of three bestfriends :

On one fine day, Gaduh, Diam & Bahasa plan nak main sorok-sorok..

Gaduh,Diam,Bahasa : Si..ya..pa.. yang.. gan....jil!

Gaduh sorang jek antara mereka bertiga yang keluarkan tapak tangan. Dye yang ganjil. Dye yang kena cari yang lain.

Gaduh pun mula mengira ...

Diam : Aku nak sembunyi pat mane seyy??

Bahasa : Aku nak sembunyi sama ngan ko bole tk??

Diam : Kepala lutut ko!

Bahasa : Kenapa dgn kepala lutut aku?.. (Dengan muka yang blurr thp DEWA)

Gaduh : sa..tu, du..we

Diam : Eh! cepatla g sembunyik!

Gaduh : ti..ga

Diam g sembunyik belakang apek yang tengah tido dgn nyenyaknye!
Bahasa g sembuyik dlm tong sampah! (Gi-la!)

Gaduh : Em..pat, li..ma.. Uik! da ke belum??

Diam : Su.. dah (dgn sore yang lantang!)

Gaduh : Da ke belum??

Diam : Su!..Dah!! (Kuat gi-la thp gaban, sampai buwat apek tue terjage!)

Apek : Eh! Lu sape??.. Kinape lu jerit2?? suda gi-la ka?? kacau jek wa mahu tido! Lu sapa nama??

Diam : Diam.

Apek : Waaa! Lu manyak kulang ajar ar?.. Wa tanya lu apa nama??

Diam : Diam.

Apek : (muka da mcm kena bakar) Kulang ajar bitol! Lu pnya bahasa mana?

Diam : Dalam tong sampah.

Apek : (muka mcm tercekik menahan sabar) Eh! lu ea.. lu nak carik gaduh sama wa ke?

Diam : Bukan wa mau carik gado sama lu, pek .. Tapi gaduh mau carik sama waa.

okay , now that apek da tk leh nak kata ape lagik.. Angkat kaki terus blah..
Kasihan itu apek.

Enough for now ..


(@_@)

My Treasure Chest

special edition : MARI MENGENAL MEREKA (:

- better than ordinary
- marked off from others by some distinguishing quality
- the MSG of my life (like maggi cukup rase) , make my life even more 'tasty'
- you guys are my treasure (;

Part 1 :

• Sharifah Nurul Natasha
• more likely to be known as Tasha
• known as Tiong in the middle year of matriculation (ien yg b'tnggngjwb)
• krn trlalu gumbira di final year atas sbb musebab yg kuat , maka tercipta panggilan miss cabbage (aku yg bagik masa tgh kuliah maths, amat sesuwai dgn size cheeks-nye)
• 18th December 1990 , a sagitarius
• ada impian nk bump into Jensen Ackles (hah! sibuk jek nk simpan impian cm aku)
• will be graduated with hnrs in audiology, ukm
• already attached to jaja (sgt tgh gi-la berchenta)
• hilarious things akan buat aura chipmunk keluar sepantas petir
• sgt funny , understanding , baik (cabb, jgn kembang)
• sentiasa riang ria hari-raya
• suka baling2 air kt shower room bersblhn shower room dye
• a cat's lover :

• byk jgk persamaan dgn aku :
• selalu mengadu lapar
• suka makan byk
• bile order food kat cafe, suka request : ' cik mintak ayam st lagik, tmbh telur mata lembu st, smbal lebih sket, urm.. semua bpe ekh? '
• excited nk jwb soalan drpd mr irwan (aku rase mase memula smgt thp dewa blaja chem utk sem 2)
• suka horlick tabur , milo tabur , semua yg berterabur!
• sgt suka suki bile ada nawaituu nk wat aku jeles dgn cite die with HOTLINK , bertmbh suka suki mcm nk smbt raye bile berjaya melaksanakan niat dye
• tak lokek ilmu , kaya dgn bantuan
• meggi-la-i lagu yg dinyanyikan SAIFUL SYAFIQ SARMON

byk sgt best and memorable moments yg kami lalui bersama .. (Insya-Allah , aku sharekan in my next-si post) walaupun tk byk sgt mase yg dpt kami spends bersama, krn our college-time sgt terhad.. tapi ckup utk kami insan2 bole-tahan-crazy-kiyare ngumpul and create our own history together (;

I shall treasure this gift always ..

Enough for now ..

(@_@)

hott gatos (spanish)

HARI YANG MENYENAGKAN

I would say that this morning is the best start of my day, today! Hahaha! Sgt seronok! On 1st oct Intan, the kucing dah delivered! Nie kirenya her second round la! Hahaha! Intan. (Lupe whether mama bie @ bibik yg bagik name) Hehe.. Kali nie 4 cute kittens selamat dgn jaya-nya keluar. Hihihi. Semuanye chomeyl! Now, all of us called Intan as 'Mak Intan'.. Hahaha! 2 : male , 2: female ..

This picture was taken after a month mereka keluar dari mama intan's "house"

Back to the story. Pagi ini. Celik mate jek trus mam besau sroh kami (along & i) mandikan ank2 Mak Intan. Huh?! Malas! That was the first word yg terlintas in mind n heart.(Betapa malasnya aku hingga hati dan otak said the same word!) Ok. Takpe. Mama yg sroh. Ok. Kita follow. Jangan. Banyak. Colok. Herrr.. Tapi suddenly, kemalasan change in a split sec. Hahaha! That is what we call ' MIRACLE ' Hahaha. Aku jadik.. Excited. Happy. Rajin. Energetic. U noe y??..

Pasal sape seyy yg thn tgk kittens yg cute2 tue?.. Dah la bile jalan terkedek-kedek. Chomeyl la syiak! Huuu.. Tk thn aku weii.. Geram!

Standard la kan kalo mandikan kucing nie.. Dyeorg pny meng-moew jek sekampung bole dgr. Ntah2 smpai seberang tambak bole dgr. Hahaha. Tapikan.. amongs all the 4 kittens, ada 2 ekor jek yg rasenye suke gyler bile dimandikan..

Hahaha! Inilah 2 ekor kittens yg water-fearless! Hahaha! Bravo!

Untuk memandikan mrk, we need all these stuff. (Aku rase hny Along dan aku jekk kot yg gunekan segala benda-alah nie)

These are all the things needed. Dari susu ke hair dryer ke sikat hinggakan ke bedak baby johnson. Hee! =]


Pink case nie dulu mama gune untuk letak her and along's folded clothes mase kne thn kat hospital. Aku jumpe kat store menda nie. Rasenye, mama tkmo pakai lagi. So, kteorg transfer kittens dari cat's cage msk dlm pink stuff nie. Cage besar sgt. Berat plak tue. Container nie da la ringgan pasrue ada holder. Mudah.


Guys! we do need hair dryer. Baby kucing tk thn sejuk. Jadik, tool nie sgt membantu mengeringkan mrk dgn cepat. Tapi kne careful laa.. Bole terkencit baby kucing kalo terpanas sgt. Hee.. =]


Dyeorg kne jgak breakfast dlue before kne mandi. Hee.. Semua kucing yg ad kat umah nie, kiteorg bgik mnum fresh milk. Segala jenis brand fresh milk kami da kasi dyeorg utk banjirkan tekak. Daripada brand Cowhead, ke Marigold, ke HL hingga lah brand Dutchlady. Full cream. Low fat? No. Not suitable. Hahaha. Pasal mereka kitten lagi, jdik tk reti nk licked susu ats piring. The one in blue irregular border tue jumpe dlm drawer kitchen. Along amek. Gune pancit2 ubt tue utk bagik susu pd 4 ekor bdak2 tue. Hehe. We used 2 diff kind of comb utk sikat fur kucing. Inside pink border, gune sekali dgn hair-dryer. The other one, gune after letak bedak pd kittens' bodies. Hee..

Kteorg mandikan gune shampoo Friskies. Aloe Vera. Wangi. Kalah bau shower gel body shop aku! Hee..

WAIT!! u guys see small bottle with green cap inside the hot pink border?.. Ngaaa! The most penting thing! Hand gel antibacterial. Dettol hand sanitizer. Hee..

Kengkawan! Kebersihan and safety comes first!

Bahagia!

Enough for now ..

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